In the past I've been annoyed and sometimes hurt to read people complaining about how there's no decent Merlin femslash or whatever out there
Yeah. Even in the heyday of Merlin fandom we were such a small pool it was hard not to take that personally, like, what am I chopped liver? Even though it was coming from people who probably meant: I presume there's no decent Merlin femslash, even though I haven't actually looked.
In particular I had this idea that I could write something where Gwen compares herself to OBVIOUSLY LESBIAN Morgana and figures she (Gwen) must be straight and goes on to marry Arthur but then later comes to terms with the fact that she's also attracted to women and has these lingering feelings for Morgana (and also probably Gwen's amazing boss Annis comes into it).
I would have read this story every day and twice on Sundays. And I think the reason why I so desperately wanted a story like this at the time was, even those parts of the Merlin/Arthur modern AUs that should have been universal, coming out to parents, or joining a queer organisation are alienating to me when it's about a m/m couple. Which is just me, me and my irrational brain weasels, but it meant I felt the lack of the equivalent stories about women all the more keenly.
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Yeah. Even in the heyday of Merlin fandom we were such a small pool it was hard not to take that personally, like, what am I chopped liver? Even though it was coming from people who probably meant: I presume there's no decent Merlin femslash, even though I haven't actually looked.
In particular I had this idea that I could write something where Gwen compares herself to OBVIOUSLY LESBIAN Morgana and figures she (Gwen) must be straight and goes on to marry Arthur but then later comes to terms with the fact that she's also attracted to women and has these lingering feelings for Morgana (and also probably Gwen's amazing boss Annis comes into it).
I would have read this story every day and twice on Sundays. And I think the reason why I so desperately wanted a story like this at the time was, even those parts of the Merlin/Arthur modern AUs that should have been universal, coming out to parents, or joining a queer organisation are alienating to me when it's about a m/m couple. Which is just me, me and my irrational brain weasels, but it meant I felt the lack of the equivalent stories about women all the more keenly.